1st
October
2007
Groan Up, part 2
posted in Frenzied Daddy |For most of my life, I’ve based my self-image on how other people saw me, physically. I felt better about myself, thinking I was attractive. But over the last ten years or so, that has been receding and my self-worth is based more on other roles in my life. It’s still tied up in how people see me, but it’s a different thing now.
For the most part, there are three or four pillars that hold up the bowl, within which resides my ego, fragile as it is, and as “teh sexay” no longer supports that, “good, professionally” has come to support it. It sounds larger in my head than it looks on paper. Realizing that my pillars have changed is profound, and probably has to do with my aging psyche.
